What This Bag Taught Me

You guys I really really love this bag. I bought it a couple of years ago, and when I say I got roasted for it… lawd, I really did. Deep down I enjoyed the attention, but besides that, I think the reason this bag made me so happy (besides the fact that it’s cute) was because it was one of the first things I added to my closet that reminded me of me. And I don’t mean ‘me’ as in who I was- but the version of me I had in my head.

I hope you understand what I mean. I think all of us, at one point, had this ideal version of our self in our head- one that achieved all the things we stress about today, a version of ourselves that is successful, thriving, doing certain things. I’m pretty sure if I ask you, you can tell me how your dream self dresses, where they live, their hobbies, what they do for a living, etc. And many times, like in my case, there’s a gap between the two of you. My gap was huge- you never would have been able to guess who I wanted to be, by looking at who I was, as weird as that sounds.

So when I saw this bag online, it wasn’t something I would’ve worn then, but it did look like something ‘she’ would wear. So I bought it. And every time I wore it I felt so different LOL, I’m laughing as I type this because I was so dramatic, but now looking back there was a lot going on subconsciously. The version of me I had in my head (if you can’t tell from this bag) is so creative, different, free, does what she wants, and doesn’t care what people think. So when I wore it, I felt like that. And so it made me feel like the rest of my dreams were a little closer.

After this I got addicted- I started adding more things and hobbies to my life that reminded me of ‘her’ (and I started to take out things that didn’t). And as I did this, I quickly realized I actually started becoming ‘her.’ Years later, I’m not where I want to be, but I’m so happy with how I’ve grown, allhamdulilah. I’m proud to say I think I am becoming that girl.

So what am I trying to say?

This bag taught me that though it’s important to not be materialistic, it’s also important to surround yourself with things you can physically see that reminds you of the version of you that you want to become. When people say, “You become your environment,” they don’t mean just people. It’s also the things that you own, the state of your room, the clothes you pick out, the food you decide to eat. If you want to change your life in a certain direction, you need to steer yourself through your decisions, even in meaningless purchases.  

I really believe in the power of manifestation. Not in some sixir way, but the idea that what you revolve your thoughts around will become your reality. So in a very Marie Kondo-esk fashion I want to thank this bag for being one of the first things to teach me that.

That’s all I gotta say. Check out this manifestation cheat sheet I think is so great if you want to reflect on a dream you have